Everyday A Fresh Start
On my mat this morning, looking out the window at the night sky here in Cedar Key, I see a million blinking stars and planets. Hidden by light pollution in most of the places I spend my time, I sat in awe. I wanted no roof, no barriers. I wanted to lie on my back and drink the sky in. Before i knew it I was outside, sneakers on, walking to the dock. I lie down on the cold wood, warned by the darkness and nourished by the burning lights. Without words, they speak to me. Get your mat.
In a blink, I'm back in the yoga room, placing my mat, block, strap, and journal in a bag. As if in a dream, I'm back on the dock, mat rolled out, saluting the sun as it peaks over the horizon. With every rise of my body, the sun rises too. We are working together. It feels so right.
When we are finished, the sun and I, I walk home. The rich aroma of brewing coffee rouses my lover from bed. I dish out our omelette and we chat. The work day begins, a success already no matter what gets done and what doesn't. Which makes the work somehow easier.
After the first checkmark on the day's to-do list. I turn to email, my morning validated by this lovely post from Leo Babauta.
This is day four of my year-long commitment to daily walking and writing. I'm being kind to myself, setting no minimums, focusing on intention only. If I leave the house with the intention of walking, and I do, I've walked. If I pick up the pen, or open the laptop, with the intention of writing, and I do, then I've written.
Both are little gifts I am giving myself, not additional obligations I'm piling on. This is how I feel today. I know myself well enough to know there will be days it will feel like an obligation. There will be days I will forget to be kind to myself, forget my generous definitions, and fall into bed feeling that I've failed because I didn't meet some higher expectation.
When that happens, I hope I can remember today, and Leo's words, and start again the next morning.
PS...if you're looking for a bit of respite from the busyness of life, to connect with yourself and your sisters, take a few days and come join me and Lisa Myla Sandhusen at Santosha for the Fall Santosha Sister Splash